Changing

Waiting, leaping into adulthood,
wishing youth is forever,
not knowing easy and fast isn't good,
independence, vibrancy life.

Birthing, beginning, babies and families,
smelling fear,
it all starts out easy,
all at once your life starts there.

Borrowing, begging for success,
deaf world ignores your plans,
finances are such a mess,
making ends meet.

Fighting, screaming with yourself,
learn to love your chosen heart,
sometimes desire with someone else,
comes between the ones you raised.

Crying, working, to understand,
Worth it?
The answer isn't dying,
It's existence.